The worst day yet!!!

August 22, 2017 Tuesday

I slept more than 12 hours last night and dreamed about all kind of Scandinavian foods – at least that’s what I think they were.  I know nothing about Scandinavian foods!!  I kept waking up and going right back to sleep until I got up at 9:00.  Sure was nice.

I did nothing today.  I sat around.  I played with the kids for a few minutes at a time.  Otherwise I let other people take care of me.  That was kind of different cause that is not very comfortable for me, but that’s what I did today.

I did drive back home this evening – it was a long, slow drive.  I stopped several times – to get dinner.  To get dessert.  To get gas.  To get lottery tickets (and Almond Joy!)  Yup, a strange drive that took forever.

The bad part about the day was how I felt all day long.  TIRED!!!!  Exhausted!! from doing nothing!!!!  I had really bad creepy crawly skin on both legs, face, scalp, neck, inside mouth, throat and on the right side of my tongue.  It didn’t hurt, but it certainly felt strange.  The inside of my mouth was also kind of slimy or something – really strange feeling and not in a good way.  I had three instances where I moved quickly and thought I might pass out, but that passed quickly, thank goodness.  Nothing tasted very good, but I certainly kept trying things – I ate chocolate and even had a Blizzard for dessert!!   Haven’t had one of those in years, I think.  The worst problem was that my intestinal system went haywire but that ended before dinner.  I am having some sudden hot flashes but those are shorter and shorter.  I just feel LOUSY!!!!

The weirdest part was on the drive home where I kept feeling like I was “beside myself” but I don’t know a better way to explain it than that.  It was really strange, like I was not quite in charge of my actions or something.  I drove as carefully as I could and had no problems but it took a long time from walking in the door of the house to getting the energy up to write this blog.  I’m just slap worn out.

It’s my worst day yet but I know that considering what many, many other people go through with chemo, it’s not bad at all.  I’m just thankful to be able to have to chemo and hopefully kill the cancer.  Then when I checked my mailbox, I got a whopping big hospital bill, but I knew it was coming and it’s certainly a reasonable price to pay to be cured!!!

Author: melaniesjourneythroughcancer

I am a retired teacher who was recently diagnosed with triple negative ductal breast cancer. I decided to write this blog to record the actions and emotions that occur as I make this journey through the cancer experience.

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